Week 2 Weigh In and PMS Rant. LOL

So it has been one heck of a few days. It all started with Friday the 13th. Go fig. It would have to be that day. Lol.

First, I knew I had my 2 week weigh in on the 14th... it was time to see if I made my 2 week goal of -5lbs. But I was starting to feel PMS-y. Yay, it's that time of the month! so that sucked big time. I wasn't 100% sure it would be wise to weigh myself, cause when I PMS, I get bloated and retain water. So that wasn't fun.

Then for those who have been following my Vlogs: http://www.youtube.com/user/HappDeeNess

You know I'm on weight watchers. And weight watchers works on the points system. They take your age, weight, height and sex and use all of that to determine how many points you should eat a day. The number of points is based on how much fiber, fat, protein and carbs you need to take in on a daily basis for a healthy and successful weight loss plan. You need to eat all of your points, or as close to as possible. They even give you weekly allowance points for if you need to eat, but it would put you over your daily points... you can borrow from the weekly allowance.

My points is 41 points a day. Usually I do pretty well... I have never hit my 41 points... but I usually do about 30 to 35... so I'm just a little shy of my 41 point goal.

Well, On Friday the 13th... I only ate... and I didn't even realize it until just now... but I only at 13 points. (weird huh?) I had breakfast, then the day got away from me, and by the time I realized I missed lunch and dinner, I was on my way to a singing competition I entered... and the only thing on the way was fast food, and I didn't want to fall back into that habit again... so I'm glad I didn't eat a burger just because I had the points... but its not good that I skipped all those meals and didn't even snack. 

With 41 points, I never miss a meal, I even snack. I do it healthier now that I'm more conscious of what is in the food I'm eating, but I never deprive myself. So it was not the best thing that I missed all those meals.

Then there was the competition. There were 5 places available in the finals... and only 9 people auditioning in this first preliminary round (there is one more next month). Considering 4 of the contestants, I knew I had a good chance to make it in unless there was a fix in or something. Lol

Well, first when I got there... I had chosen a song, and 2 back up songs in case that song wasn't available that I had been practicing for ages. Turns out I needed to sing 3 songs which was like: Cool, cause I have 3 picked. When I looked through the book... they didn't have any of the songs. I was surprised, because I've been to some really small karaoke clubs and even they have 2 of the 3 songs I chose... so I had to find 3 more songs, songs I knew, but obviously didn't have a chance to practice or prepare myself.

There were some really bad singers, some mediocre singers, but there were 2 who were fairly good. There was one girl I thought I did about as good as, she had a pretty voice, one song was great, one song was mediocre, one song could have been good had she pushed herself a little more. But she has a really nice voice. But then there was one kid. Young guy, couldn't be more than 21, 22yrs old.  He was Freaking AMAZING. AMAZING. he was EVERYTHING the judges were looking for. He had perfect pitch, he had a great tone to his voice, he had great stage presence, he basically should be on American Idol, not some rinky dink competition in some no where town. I was ready to pack it up because I knew this kid would go far.

But I did my best and gave it my all despite the set back, and I did make it to the finals... but I don't really want to go to the finals now. My mom wants me to go, but... well, here's what made me uncomfortable.

First off, the competition isn't over. There is still the finals, and that's where you get placed 1st, 2nd or 3rd. usually in the preliminaries, if you know you have 5 people moving on... you just say, "Here are the finalists in no particular order." At this competition, they decided to rate you 1st through 5th place. I'm like what the hell? Whose stupid idea was THAT? The competition isn't even over, so why are you going to place the finalists? They still have another chance at the finals... I mean, think of 4th and 5th place... there are only 3 top spots in the finals. What a psych out is coming in 4th or 5th during the preliminaries? The judges are going to be the same... and they obviously liked three other singers better. how are you going to impress the SAME judges more when you've already given 110%?  

So placing finalists as 1st - 5th before the finals was the DUMBEST idea I've ever heard, EVER.

Then there was the actual judging. This one guy who had a really nice voice got 5th place. I got 4th place, and I could see that because I wasn't on my A game since I had to pick 3 songs I wasn't prepared to sing. The other girl with a nice voice got 3rd... then when they announced 2nd there was a collective WTF coming from the audience.

The guy who had the AMAZING should have a record deal NOW voice... came in 2nd. No one could believe it. Not a single person. I couldn't imagine who was 1st, because he was the best of the best, and there was no one else left who even rivaled the guy in 5th place. 

When they announced 1st... there was another collective WTF. It was this guy who sang a bunch of oldies songs. They were fun Karaoke songs... but vocally he was nothing special. If anything, he was 5th place worthy since there were 5 spots and 4 of the 9 contestants were just not that good. He was a nice enough guy... but being nice and picking fun songs didn't make him a good singer. He was okay, definitely not the worst of the night, but not okay enough to beat out that kid who had the kind of voice that would get him on American Idol! I mean, WTF!?

Even someone who knows the guy who is friendly with him did a WTF when she realized the kid didn't get 1st. She even said, that guy's voice was 5th place worthy at best. I'm sure he's a nice guy, and he'd probably be fun at a Karaoke bar... but 1st place? Definitely not compared to that kid. That kid was freaking amazing.

Well here's the thing. From the moment he walked in... The DJs hosting the event ran up to talk to him, and seemed to cater to him. They brought a book to his table with an entry form, talked to him while he filled it out, and took the form back. They didn't even say 2 words to us other contestants let alone run the stuff to us.

Then I saw the guy holding up a note... I thought I saw one of the DJ's take it, but I thought, Eh he's probably just changing songs. But, it was still odd, like they knew each other. the DJs weren't the judges, so you wouldn't have thought anything of it, until they mentioned that their MOM was one of the judges.

So it just seems odd that they seem friendlier to this guy than anyone else, and he takes 1st despite not having that great of a voice. I dunno. Maybe they heard something no one else did, cause I like I said, everyone was shocked that amazing kid came in 2nd to this guy.

So now I'm like, if this amazing singer can't even beat a mediocre one (at best)... what chance do I have of placing when I placed 4th to a singer that didn't even deserve to place other than the fact they needed to send off 5 people. Which again... brings me back to the whole, why the hell did they even do places when there is still another round of competition anyway? 

So I really don't know if I want to even go to the finals. My mom wants me to go... she told me to look what they had and pick songs I know they'll have so I can work on it... and just go and have fun... but what fun is it when you feel like you're wasting your time because if that amazing singer didn't get placed fairly, what chance to I have as 4th place!? GAH

So it just doesn't seem to be run all that well and I wonder if the finals would just be a big waste of my time. But I don't know. Maybe I'm just PMSing and I should just go and try my best. I just don't know.

Then of course I had to sing at Church on Sunday... I'm Catholic, so I volunteer as a reader and singer. unfortunately, the singers don't get rehearsals unless they're in the choir, and I don't have the time to join the Choir with everything else I do... so usually I just look up the songs online and practice that way. I've never had issues till this weekend.

There was a psalm I had never seen before... and I couldn't find it online. ANYWHERE. I was freaking out because I'm like... um... what am I going to do? The Psalm comes between the first and second readings... and I have to sing the verses alone in front of everyone. I can't hide behind the whole congregation or the priest singing, it's just me. So I'm like, crap crap crap. So I spent till 4am trying to find this psalm online. Never had success. So I woke up Sunday morning, only to realize, it was 11:30am. Mass was almost over!!! My mom told me she realized I was stressing out and thought there would be no harm in letting me miss. Other cantors miss all the time, and for all the times I've filled in for them... I've earned one free day. So now I feel guilty for missing church.

Then Monday came... and It's MLK day, so according to the internet, there was a special going on at a local casino. $20 free play. So I get up early to beat the crowds only to find out the special is random... not everyone gets the free play. So I'm like, seriously? we're going to play it this way now? Crap. My mom didn't get it either... and what sucked for her, she didn't get her senior special either because they suspended Senior day for this MLK day special. 

I'm SOOOOOOO lucky I came $45ahead... so at least I don't feel too bad.

Then, on top of PMS, an ankle that seems to be getting gradually worse, and PMS hunger cravings... I have a nasty nasty nasty toothache. I called a dentist, but they couldn't get me in till February 20th! despite the extreme pain I said I was in, and worry that I had an abscess, (which is dangerous), they said the best they could was put me on a list for in case someone cancels. Luckily I found another dentist to get me in on Thursday as an emergency. (thank God)

Then of course I broke my nail... (acrylic) I fell and chipped it and part of the acrylic broke, so when I get my nails filled and painted, I'll also have to pay for a fix. GAH. And my dingle dangle fell out. My nail tech put on this cute little bling bling charm on my pinky nail. It got snagged on my sweater, and when I gently tried to get it loose, it fell off. *Sigh*

BUT OH MY GOD... what a few days it has been!

Anyway. Despite PMS bloating, I decided to weigh myself on Saturday... taking into consideration that I'm retaining a little PMS water weight.

Starting: 270lbs

Week 1: 266.1

Week 2: 265.2 (maybe less due to PMS)

So basically... I'm -5 lbs! WOO I made my first 2 week goal! I'm very proud of myself.

I've set a new 2 week goal for 3lbs. That's 1.5 lbs a week which I think is doable.

Thanks for listening to my rant.